Confession Thursday

Thought I'd start a new segment on the ole blog.. you know, another thing I will forget to repeat and a year from now will chastise myself for, for being such a slacker. ;) I'm going to call it Confession Thursday... cuz, well, that's what I'm doing, and that's what day it is. I'm going to come clean about some stuff and I figured I'd invite ya'll along for the ride. These are totally random things that have been sitting in my brain that I just never get around to writing about. Here goes nothing...

* I really, really, want to figure out how to sell my art/crafts so that I can contribute financially to my family. I often joke that if I had a dollar for every time I heard "you should have an Etsy." Or, "you could totally sell those.." I'd never have to "work" again. The problem is that my brain works in that creative, come up with ideas and make stuff, way.. but simply does not translate to sales. I often feel like a waste of talent.

*My kids drive me bonkers sometimes quite a bit. I feel like I follow a lot of people of social media and blogs and what not, and they have these picture perfect lives.. which I'm sure are not really picture perfect all of the time.. but it sure looks like it. And sometimes after I scroll through RosyInstagram I feel like I'm coming up short as a Mom. The truth is that I'm doing my best, and I would not trade them for the world.. I love them to bits, but they also make me kooky. & sometimes I want to lock myself in a closet and hide for awhile.

*Sometimes when our oldest walks through the house (he's 18) I get startled... like if the house is quiet and I'm say, sitting at my desk gleefully blogging... and he walks by to get his boots on for work I like, jump! He is the size of a grown man and I guess I'm just not used to that. In my mind both of my older boys are perpetually frozen at the age of 7. I mean, I know they are not 7 anymore.. but sometimes I just look at them like, how? Cliche, but so true... and I also look at them in amazement that I didn't totally screw them up. :) so far. ;)

*I hate to meal plan, grocery shop, and even cook. But I often think about meals or food as rewards.. treats for good behavior. You'd think I would like the preparation part more because of that, but I loathe it.. truly. The kids are on Spring Break this week and honestly the hardest part of it is all the food! Breakfast, lunch, dinner, snacks, and more snacks. It feels like such work!

*I thought coloring my hair bright, funky colors would make me take time to style it more often. Nope. It still goes right into a pony or messy bun the moment I wake up. Seems like kind of a waste of cool hair.. but I guess I'm just a messy bun kinda girl. I tell you what. 32 years, and I still have no idea what to do with my long, curly locks.

*I love taking baths, but the water is never hot enough. I want to come out of there looking like a lobster.. but much to my dismay, I never accomplish that. When I was pregnant I used to worry about how the heat would effect the baby. I may or may not have even googled "baths during pregnancy + boiling the baby." ..just to make sure it would be ok. Also, don't judge, I had pregnancy brain.

*I love candy but dislike chocolate.. unless it's butterfingers or reese's cups... and then I only like it because I eat all of the chocolate off in order to get to the good stuff, the insides. I seriously have candy stashed all over the house and it takes major restraint not to shove my face with it all day, everyday. I'm super impressed with those people who "go off sugar" for whatever amounts of time. I've narrowed it down to one day a week of indulging.. but look forward to that so much that I can't imagine giving it up totally.

*I have Mom-Wife-guilt over my roller derby hobby... but not enough guilt to stop playing, apparently. It's a really expensive sport. Nice skates/plates can be around $500. Wheels upwards of $100 a set. All of the pads, safety gear, gas money to and from practices, traveling expenses for tournaments, jerseys. It's a lot. Not to mention the time it takes away from my family. I practice around 3x a week and the space is an hour from our house... so there are a lot of times I basically run out the door when Hottie gets home so I can make warm ups on time... but I love it... and it has also been really good for me... and the family is very supportive so I don't forsee giving it up any time soon.

So those are some confessions for ya. If you took the time to read that you (are my new best friend) probably learned some stuff about me.. which is kinda cool. Maybe you can relate? What kind of confessions do you have? Let's make this a thing!

Oh! ...to make this the longest post ever, here is what spurred this idea on for me... I made this layout because I joke about how everything looks better filtered.. or how much filters can change what's really going on.. and it made me think about under the surface, real life stuff that I wanted to share.. thus, Confession Thursday...